Me: Oh Kelly wen't for a scan. She's not as far along as we thought.
Becca: Really?
Me: Yeah. She's due early July.
Becca: Cool.
Me:*thinks* WOuldn't it be cool if Lyn-z had a boy and Kelly had a girl and they met one day and fell in love. I would be like the aunt of Gerard way's daughter in law.
Becca: 0_0!!! FAN GIRL!

That was fun.

I'm finally 15. Well that was like 5 months ago.

I'm moving! To England. Earl Shilton to be percise. It's just outside Liecter. About a 1/2 hour bus ride. Omg! Living without my mum will be so strange. But I'll be with daddy.

I was away ALL summer in some shit hole village with a computer that broke every 10 minutes...no joking.

But then the last week of my stay I came back from my first trip to the city and ran onto a friend, let's call him Bob, I had made like a month prior. We just chatted and headed to this kiddy play castle, like 7 ft high concrete thing. There I let slip that I am bi...His reaction? "Make out with me! Please!" Obviously I said no. His friend, Joe, was there so he had to wait.

So anyway the next day I went out and like all of his mates were out. But my head freaked and I stormed off quickly after a couple of hours. Insert text from one of the guys, Bill, asking if i was ok here. And that was the start of my terrible Shilton guy love parade.

I went to the park and Bill came by with 2 friends and said that he text me and I explained I had no credit to reply. Aobut an hour passes and somehow we got round to truth or dare and I ended up getting dared to make out with Bill. Did I mention he was fit? Well he was. Well to save making it look like I liked him I said only if the other two guys kissed. Just a peck. It took twenty minutes for them to do it, but eventually they did.  Obviously me and Bll made out. I'd say 7/10. Then they all decided to go get stoned. Yeah, STONED! I was really shocked. But Bill text saying I was a good kisser.

Fast foreward a week. I made out with Bill teice more, once in my bedroom for multiple hours. Joe asked me to make out with him cause he liked me ALOT! But Bill said that he wanted to be the only guy I got with over summer. So I cancelled on Joe. And Bob? Well he went on holiday so no time.

I few home and continued to talk to Bill. Up until the point where his ex came back on the scene and they started dating again. Broke my heart. 2 weeks later I text Bob saying that I was going over soon and he said that maybe Icould fufill my promise to get with him. And I agreed. But when I went over he cancelled.

And that was that. I decided just to forget about the guys and work on just being alive and getting my grades. Then 3 weeks ago, out of the blue, Joe text me. Saying he still liked me. I knew he had got a girlfriend when I was gone and asked  how she felt about him saying that. He said he dumped her cause she was a life wrecking bitch.

We texted for over 12 hours that day. Thank God we both have free texts. By the end of the night we were together.

Oh but it doesn't end there. Joe didn't tell anyone we were together. The result was that I talked to Bob the other night.  And he asked me out. The heartbreak I went through saying no. Not half as much he did recieving it.

Any thing else good in my life?

Ummm..I'm resitting my N3, that's like 1/2 of my math exam for those who don't know. I got a B but I want to get an A.
I saw Mindless Self Indulgence, YouMeAtSix, The Medic Droid, We Are The Ocean, From Fist To Last and The Blackout in concert. Not all the same night, bar the last four. Best  4 band night ever.
About to head to a six band afternoon. Haven't seen most of them before. But hey something to do.

So I will try and get on more.

Much love.
Emma-Lee
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 and this is one for "on the edge" by Tokio hotel

PLEASE HELP MEWITH PUBLICITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PPPPPPPPPPPPPPLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEE

I made ths comment to Breesays;

and then it made the homepage

an now its in the newsletter;

pfft you make a slight Pun and its all over the website in a week.

This is about everyone hating Elizia and the situation involving her Gerard and Lyn-z.

When the rumours started of thier relationship I was really interested about who this woman was and if she was going to post stuff about Gerard. I know very selfish of me but i just wanted to know. one day i read a rumour saying she was using Gerard and my brain reversed and kept telling me,"HATE HER!! SHES HURTING HIM!!". But the all the hate comments came to her and my friends kept telling e, don't be a teeny, don't hate her. ButI trusted my head over them. I continued hating her and regularly went on to my photo shop and defaced a picture of her.

And one night i snapped and I broke down. I was alone that night. The tears run down my face and i cried for 20 minutes straight. I googled her name and saw all the hate for her and i put my self in her shoes. I knew it would be killing her cause i was hated by 1girl in my school who made up romours about me. I multipied the pain I felt by thousands and nearly broke down again.

I added her as a friend on here and wanted to write to her but she disabled her comments and I understood why.

Then thee engagment broke up and the rumour got more publicised. I felt sorry for her and the fact she had to go into hiding. but this time i choose my friends and i feel back into disliking her.

When Lyn-z came onto the scene i thought it would be another round of the same thing. And it was for a while. Everyone was saying that she was a druggie and she was bad fir Gerard. But i stuck to my morals and didnt hate her. I stayed happy for them and was ecstatc that they married.

And i surfed around another popular site im on and peopl kept saying they hated her and i stuck up for her. And i realised. I was being the biggest hypocrite possible. Hatting Elizia and loving Lyn-z. So i took a step back and thought "ok i'll start affresh." so i visted Elizias page on here and WMHC and decided that i would look out for any evidence of her coming back. And last month she did and she allowed people to comment on her posts and i was happy. But i was too late. I was offline for a few days and missed her saying she allowed them and when i saw the journal i rushed to comment and noticed she had turnfed them off again and read through the the comment and realised there had been people bitching to her agin and i was sad that they had got the her again. And she hasnt updated since.

Any one reading this should know, Elizia is really cool and you have no reason to hate her.  NO PHYSICAL PROOF WHAT SO EVER TO!!

If any of you say you do and its the letter postted on the Imnotokay.com message board. I have a queston. Does it have a name on it? No. So it is more than likely as real as Katie Prices boobs.

I like Elizia Cuts.
I adore Lyn-Gee.

You...
[x] Got depressed
[x] Overdosed
[x] Felt like you hit rock bottom
[x] Attempted Suicide
[x] Felt too alone
[x] Pushed people away
[x] Hated yourself
[x] Wished you weren't you
[x] Got Jealous

Total you: 10
al so far: 32

(multiply by 2)
Total: 64

post as: 2007 was __% crap

• i have now since realised my life is my and i shouldn't put it on hold for 1 person
• i have broke up with my boyfriend. I just didnt like him as much as i thought i did....ok it was pity and he wsn't attractive.
• i'm stopping my story cause i've lost my love for writing this story
• i'm writig a story on my pc but i might not post it
• im getting a new hair cut not sure what like yet either of these 2(if eiether of the pics is you/ your friend thanks for having great hair)
• yes i still am in love with elliot.hes my rock how could i not be
• im really broadening my music atm so if you know bands leave thier name below
• oh and my quote of the minute "hi...i'm gonna pass the mic back to Gerard now"-MIKEY WAY IN BELFAST ON 17th OF NOVEMBER(I WAS THER OF COURSE

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This is why I am so annoying/

My dad left when my brother was 3 weeks old leaving my mum to pay for 4 kids on her own. I never knew that he'd left because I was 1 at the time so I didn't notice anything different.

Mum had to fend by her self for 1 ½ years till she meet my now ex- step dad and had my little sister. And life was good then we moved into a new house and we just got on with our lies lives. We moved into another house when I was 6 and everything went ok, I had everything I needed, my mum hired au-pairs for us and she joined the police.

Then I noticed how messed up my family was.

My aunt moved into my street and I thought it was good but my mum told me to never walk past her house and if I needed to go anywhere that meant going beyond the street I had to use the alley half way down it. I was young I just accepted it. One night I couldn’t sleep so I listened to the silence, then my sister ran into the house screaming "MUM CHRIS JUST THREATENED TO RAPE ME" and I knew that she was serious about it. After that everything got worse. We had to get a restraining order out against my cousin because he kept driving down the street the wrong way and turning out side our house just to see if we were in. then the violence. First he smashed our door so It dragged when we opened it, then he smashed my sister. She was outside and he hit her with a baseball bat. It would have been murder if my au-pair hadn't saved her.

Then another sleepless night I heard my step dad screaming at mum and I could hear her shouting back and I then my sister calling the police saying her step dad had a GUN to his head and was saying he was going to pull the trigger. I just cried. The next morning when my brother said that he'd saw Jamie holding a gun to his head mum said it was a dream.

Then I started secondary school.  2 weeks later my cousin died of an ecstasy over dose. 4 tablets. And that’s when Chris decided to strike again. While sleeping in bed ½ a breeze block (a giant cement brick) came through the window landing less than a metre from my head.

After I had some counselling life was ok. I was on my own most of the time, and in French the girls on either side of me kept asking me to swap seats so they could sit together. You know the girls as well.

Then my life calmed down. It was basically just getting through exams and trying to be popular and getting guys to like me. Then in summer 2006 I had a dream come true. I got a boyfriend. Danny. We only lasted a week and after that, while on the rebound I meet Tom. He was really nice to me and when he went on holiday he waited 2 hours outside my house till I came home. The point our relationship went bad was when he decided that the best way to make me like him more was to put his hand down my underwear. I broke up with him then.

That Christmas I got my I pod and for a laugh I downloaded some song my little sister had been listening to called, Helena, I'm not okay and welcome to the black parade. I totally ignored them till I put my I-pod on shuffle and decided to listen to them. They affected me. The words seemed to get to me. From then on I gradually listened to them more and the other music on my I-pod less. Soon I found myself on a website called buzznet because my friend wanted to hear what our loose friends story was about and I did and when I read it I realised that I didn't belong to the crowd I was in so I went to the hairdressers and asked for my long hair to be cut to shoulder length.

And now you have me here in front of you.